Bring on the Holiday's...

I love this quote from the amazing musical Dear Evan Hansen (#theatrenerd). I woke up this morning with an overwhelming feeling of sadness, and as I laid in my bed (with dog and husband blissfully sleeping...and snoring....next to me), I decided to turn that sadness into gratefulness.

The holiday's are hard for many people, for many different reasons. For those struggling with infertility, it's another day that goes by that could have been spent sharing happy news with family and friends or experiencing a "first" with their newborn.

The past few weeks I have been sharing stories from others, as I navigate the rocky waters of IVF. That in itself has been an interesting road, and one that I will get more into detail next week. But you see, today started out as a hard day because had I not run into some additional complications along the way, today could have been the day we shared that we were finally pregnant. My husband and I started this journey alone because we (and I really mean me...) always had this idea of how we would tell our families that we were pregnant. I would watch videos on YouTube for hours of different pregnancy reveals, trying to come up with one on my own. Somewhere along the way, as we told more and more people about what we were going through, that fantasy slipped away. Even though most of our close friends knew, it wasn't until this past summer that we told our parents and siblings (two years into the process) because once they knew....the surprise would disappear. So I suppose I woke up thinking about this which brought on a mix of emotions.

After a few minutes of being emo, I picked up my phone and started texting my friends that have been so important along the way....thanking them for their love and support and friendship. With each text, a tear would fall, mixed with sadness and hope.

So in the spirit of today, here is what I am thankful for:

-my incredible husband who has shown me that love has no boundaries, and who has been my rock through this journey

-our families who are both incredibly supportive, but also know when not to push on this sensitive subject

-my friends who always seem to know the right thing to say, whether I'm happy, sad, or dramatic (again...#theatrenerd)

-the new friends I have made who are navigating this along with me who have become a necessary support system

-and finally, to those who have reached out because of this blog, both showing support and empathy

Peace....Love....Theatre Nerds.

Happy Thanksgiving!